Never hurt but always afraid.
Friday, October 30, 2009
10:51 PMI met up with joel lately.
I told him that i wanted a break. My reason:
"i don't need a relationship."
i know, thats a bad excuse but i felt i had to break up with him.
i don't know why.
Maybe i'm just afraid to get hurt again.
Anyway, he was pissed off.
He asked for a better reason.
The problem was, i didn't had one.
He said i can't keep doing this.
That i didn't need to be afraid of getting hurt...because i won't.
I wanted to say something, but a lump raised in my throat.
I couldn't even get myself to freaking speak!
He walked away.
I wanted to stop him, but i couldn't.
Not then.
The first thing i wanted to do was to cry.
I wanted to cry because,
what he said,
was right.
Why? I wanted to ask.
Why am i afraid?
Why, is it that people like fathin or Jia min,
Whom have been hurt before,
Are so opened to love.
And yet I,
whom have never been hurt before,
is so rejecting towards love.
Always pushing it away from me whenever it comes close.
I'm lost.
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